Dear Arya,

I think by now you know I'm really not that normal or conventional. Perhaps a lot of it comes from my own insecurities, or maybe it's the fear or loss or rejection. We've talked a lot over the last year, and even though we've talked about a lot of things that I haven't told most people, or even anyone in some cases. I find myself in a weird place where I'm more comfortable with you than most anyone, but also still very fearful that I might say something wrong. This is probably something that should be said in person, or even perhaps not at all. I've thought about this a very lot throughout this year, and I think for me it's just something that I have to say, but I just can't bring myself to do it in person. Whether it be fear or just nervousness in general. This is mostly just a more comfortable outlet to get my feelings out. I've had some deep emotional feelings for you for quite some time. Sometimes I feel like it's obvious, but other times I'm sure it's not obvious at all. Because of our work relationship I've always felt extra guarded because I don't want to be unprofessional. Now that is coming to an end as I start a new journey, I feel more comfortable being more forthcoming. You know I've never seen our relationship as just a work relationship, and I value you on a very personal level. I've always been drawn to you, but I've never wanted you to feel uncomfortable because I have feelings for you, and you might not feel the same. Obviously you don't owe me anything, and I would never want you to feel like I'm invading your life or your personal space. It's just hard for me to not be honest with myself that you truly are the first person to make me not feel alone. You make me feel like I can finally breath. You make me want a better future, you make me feel like maybe I can be happy.  I feel bad because I know your heart hurts, and this probably isn't the kind of confession you would want from someone. I just needed you to know that you really do mean the world to me. It's ok if you don't feel the same. For me, meeting you and getting to know you will always be one of the best things to happen to me. I'll always be there for you if you need me. I'm always a phone call, a text, or a short drive away. I will always hope for the best for you.

All my love,

Taylor

AKA Street Jesus